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Losing my home aka The Move or ‘What if?’

After the first 3 emotional updates I wonder if I am ready to accept the situation and begin to move forward in a more constructive manner. I am still contemplating possessions and their place in my life. What amount of attachment is healthy and when does it become unhealthy to hold on? Evidently holding on to more than can fit into a vehicle is impractical, but that doesn’t stop most people. I spent much of the day looking at everything I own, one item after another and the progress of packing, letting go, moving remains extremely slow. I realise that I am losing time in my life over this. This is time I could and should enjoy or build, instead I am looking back and yes, I am holing on because it is frightening to let go. Have you ever seen the Disney Movie of Cinderella with the cute mice? Did you notice one of the mice who was trying to hold onto too many cheeses at once? That’s how I feel now. That IS …

Dear Fanchon Fröhlich

Dear Fanchon, I continue to think about you long after you have gone. Your company, art, book collection, inspiration and soirees won’t ever be forgotten. Neither will my first experience of opera and La Traviata. I wish time could, for just a day, be a-linear and allow me to skip back to June 10th 2016. I’d choose differently. I would take a taxi to the distant part of town to see you before I left. My poor choice of not saying goodbye is something that forever haunts me. I hope you knew how much you mean to me, still.

new series #1: daily journal of personal bits and pieces

Trying something new. This is more for personal benefit than it is for you but if you want to stay in touch with me or get to know me better and know what influences my choices then in this series you can. I cam across a review of Bangkok as one of the safest cities in the world. They speak about UK market towns (sleepy towns) that are much less safe than a dark soi (back alley) in Bangkok at night.. 😊 I agree. I have been to Bangkok several times and always felt unbothered and at ease. I know how to be on alert in urban settings and I found no immediate necessity for this second nature skill during my times in Bangkok. Listening to Bangkok Pat talk to his Youtube colleague, while carrying on with knitting our chihuahua a sweater. You could argue that this is a terrible use of time. I argue that it is a meditative practice that is restorative to the nervous system and in these wild global times …